poetry alert lol

well...like i said. i love poetry so watch out. i might be posting some(:

this post is about fucking nothing

this post is about fucking nothing. im just...WOW. upset. mad. angry. pissed. enraged. i dont even know. maybe regretful? but why should i feel regretful? i want to cry. :'(


BULLSHIT. im so fucking upset. and i just want to....UGH....kill something :P

this is for Carina

back home--im so tired. but i did really well on the SAT's today; i was confident lol. umm. we had almost 3 hours of rehearsals today for the Spring Show. im soooo worn out. i like that moves and the music and i got it all down now we just need to polish it...



umm....this post goes to my best friend Carina. sweety im here for you whenever. ok? i love you. time is key. just breathe and everything will be okkay. <3<3 i love youu. i know u want her (u know who she is) back to her old self but just give her some time and it will be fine. i love how you cried about what said. aww. that was to sweet. <3<3 i love you and just know that im here. by your side forever and ever. im always here when you need me. ok?

OHH and Carina don't forget about our little party ;). with carrots and pizza and music and getting high and being all loopy and shit. lmfaoo...--great day today.

oh and i also saw my daddy today. he was sick but still picked me up from school. i love you.

hospitals are depressing

back from the hospital. i feel so bad :(. hospitals are depressing. i stepped outside because my grandma started vomiting and i couldn't handle it. i slide down against the wall and i buried my head in my knees. this was so sad. i wanted to cry; my mom was there so i couldnt. i hate seeing my grandma like this. thank god for my grandfather who loves her very much and is willing to sleep in the hospital and refuses to eat just so he could spend every moment with my grandmother. their undying love is just....something beautiful. i love them so much. and i hope everything gets better.

4 hours

HEYY--well today was the first day of SAT's. i totally fucked up the math part. im so pissed because ive been doing very good in math lately but now its just.....ANYWAYS...umm. today i had a super funny lunch. CARROTS--if anyone from school was there, knows what im talking about ;). im home now. and my mom just showed me that my Tokio Hotel Fever book arrived but she wont give it to me unless i clean my messy ass room lmfao. itll take me foreverr! lol. anyways...i found out amanda is a guitar that drink orange juice ;)--insiderr lol. umm im going to see my grandma who is in the hospital after a 4 hour surgery. i feel so bad. ermm. i guess ill blog you later? glad u didnt smile and die so u heard how my day went ;)

are you shitting me?

im soooooo nervous!!!! i start SAT's today. some stupid state tests that done even apply to ur grade! it sukks. and sometimes its really hard. im taking these tests throughout the week. but i end on thursday. MY GOD i cant wait to get them over with. UGH wish me luck. please? lovee youu whoever is reading this--are you shitting me? ill be brain dead but its FTW(:

BRAIN-DEAD FTW

can't wait to be brain-dead tomorrow with SAT's and non-stop rehearsals. i guess im signing off. good bye blog. it was nice meeting you. blog you later :P

that new blog of mine. yes i know. what about it?

hmm...my new blog? i dont know if i love it or hate it. it seems pretty interesting. i mean i know a couple people with a blog and they're doing just fine thanks for asking. LOL. i think i might get used to this. i mean...i would love to post daily. so say CHEESE and DIE but first hear how my day was. ok? --

little itsy bitsy notice here

to anyone who views my blog: i'm sorry if you think im immature and some stupid kid who likes to blog about shit and be a big smartass about it. ok? but i know im not. im intelligent and i have a sense of who i am and what i do. i won't put up with your bullshit because i dont have time for it and i dont need to wast my energy on it. i made this blog so i could just tell the whole world how i feel. probably 99% of the world won't give a damn but ayy its worth a try. and i also made this blog because its a free country and i dont care what you say about me. anyways...thanks for reading this little notice.--say CHEESE && DIE(: